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Airplanes

05/14/2014

When I look up at the sky
Count the airplanes that pass by
I hope I cross your mind
‘Cause you’re always in mine

I look up at the stars
Find the brightest one so far
It just reminds me
Of how we used to be

If you only knew
What I felt for you
Would you feel the same way too
‘Cause I never stopped
Stopped hoping, so do you
Do you love me too

April 12

04/14/2014

April 12

Midnight thoughts

2 am thoughts

04/14/2014

April 11, 2014

I want to be genuinely happy

I want each day to start well, go well, and end well.

I wish I could take a break, from all the pain.

I wish it was always like this.

I wish good things never  ended.

I wish people saw the good in me all the time.

I wish society understood how it feels.

If only society felt what its like to be me.

(khxkhxthlyn)

April 10

04/10/2014

April 10, 2014

Again I watch.
I watch from a distance.
I see you with a new princess.
I torture myself by observing,
at how you look happy together
and how you chose to drift away from me.

(Khxkhxlyn)

April 8

04/08/2014

Do you ever feel worthless, and feel like the whole world is against you? Do you ever feel like the universe goes “Hey, I have a list of 20 uncool things to throw to someone. Lets throw it on this girl!” And I am that girl. Do you ever feel like giving up because you know you’ve had enough already? Do you ever feel like disappearing from the world and watch everyone live their life happily without you?

I’m tired of feeling like nobody needs me. I’m tired of feeling sad everyday. I’m tired of experiencing a wonderful day, actually thinking it would all end well, just to know that there’s always a certain person that will destroy such a beautiful day. I’m actually tired of going through the same routine everyday. Wake up, shower, eat, have a great day, go home, get scolded at, over think about life, cry to sleep. Its what happens maybe not everyday, but most of the time. Can that routine just be like: wake up, shower, eat, have a great day, sleep with a smile. I have always wanted to end each day happily, no frustrations, but no. There’s always someone or something that will keep turning my huge grin into a frown and make me feel worthless and eventually just make me cry to sleep.

Why can’t people see the positive things a person had achieved? Why does society focus on the negatives? Its quite odd that the people who should be supporting you since Day 1 are the ones who make you feel like you’re not enough; make you question your worth. I am tired of trying my best, (and actually accomplishing such achievements) just to know that what I have been doing is not enough. I am tired of living with so much expectations. Expectations that don’t even make you a better person. Expectations that will make you feel so small and will make you just want to sleep all day so that no one would bother you. I tried. I tried being the best for everyone, but I guess everyone just doesn’t see all my efforts. I know I have achieved great things, but I wish you could see it. I wish you could appreciate at least 1/16 of my achievements. It would be nice to hear a “Hey, good job!” or “You did this? Wow!” but no. It’s always “That? You’re proud of that little thing?” or “Fix your life.” Not to brag, but hey, I’m a good kid you know. I don’t do illegal things, I stay in school, my grades are pretty okay, and I’m not a bad person. But why can’t you see the good in me? Why can’t you make me feel like I’m actually special; like I am important?

But life is like that. And I can’t change it. But I can always hope for things to get better. Although, I hope you realize I’m trying. I hope you realize I am trying to be the best to make you all proud. I am.

18 Things Everyone Should Start Making Time For Again

01/03/2014

Bucketlist for 2014, yes? Yes.

Thought Catalog

1. Writing things by hand. Letters to friends, lists for the store, goals for the week, notes for lovers, thank you cards and memos to coworkers. Digital communication is easy and convenient but ask anybody: there’s a huge difference between texting someone to say that you love them and hope they have a great day and writing it on a note and leaving it next to their bed.

2. Savoring time to do nothing. Taking a cue from pre-industrialized society and cultures that enjoy siestas and long, drawn-out, sit-down teas that serve no other purpose than to spend time enjoying the time you have.

3. Thinking before responding. We’ve become too conditioned to require things immediately. Someone asks a question, and we have to respond that second. Such was not the case before instant messaging and comment threads. A sign of true intelligence and confidence, I think, is someone who…

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Perspective

01/03/2014

Perspective

We may underestimate the beauty oceans, seas, boats, trees, and nature as a whole when we’re on land. But in a different perspective, its something new, something more to what we usually see everyday. All because of a different angle; a different perspective.

{This is at Cebu, Philippines by the way!}